Monday, August 20, 2012

     I write this blog for many reasons.   To make money, to be funny, to share experiences and sometimes to vent.  I need to vent.  I have a friend that I met at my local lunch place.  I go to this place everyday, sometimes twice a day.  This is where she works.  I met her husband there and her son.  I became friends with her husband too.   She has a son in college on east coast and another son working here in Las Vegas.   I spent many hours sitting in the restaurant talking to her about her work and family.  She was the manager of the restaurant and a hard working dedicated employee.  Yesterday, She took her own life.

     I can't explain it.  I can't understand it.  I saw her almost every day and had no idea that she was in trouble.  I have searched my memory for signs.  Indications that would have given me a hint that this was possible.  There are none.  She seemed happy.  Yes, she was stressed.  She worked to hard.  To many hours.  But we joked and laughed all the time.  We had fun.  She was not moody or depressed.  I don't understand.

     There is that old quote "For whom the bell tolls, it tolls for thee"  This is a single line from a poem that talks about how we are all interconnected.   That each of us fill the lives of so many others and the passing of anyone diminishes us all.  I feel loss.  I feel diminished. I feel like I should have been able to tell she was in trouble.  I feel like I failed. 

I will miss you my friend.  May God bless you and I pray you will find peace in your rest.

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